The beginning of a new year is often synonymous with a refreshing start, new goals, an augmented sense of motivation and a magnified sense of a clean start, whereby most of our generation make an excuse to leave the past in the past. You have the chance to start fresh and start to be the person who you want to be.
I get it. There are 365 unwritten, undefined days ahead of you. No challenges have been faced and no goals have been knocked back. You literally get another chance to do all of the things you didn’t do last year. This will be the most prosperous year to date.
But for me, on the 1st of Jan 2017, I didn’t feel these things. In fact, I didn’t begin to feel anything remotely similar until nearing the end of the first month in. Truth be told, I was feeling pretty flat and extremely unmotivated. I felt unsettled and unprepared when I got back to Melbourne and I really didn’t feel like going to work. Not the best start for a fresh slate.
I tried to think of what I wanted to achieve in the year ahead. I thought about writing it down but I couldn’t muster up the inspiration to even think about what I wanted to achieve in the next week let alone a whole 365 days. My lack of enthusiasm was confusing and incredibly frustrating.
I have goals. I have certain areas of my life that I want to develop but they weren’t in the forefront of my mind when they were supposed to be. I tried. But I think it’s one of those things that you need to leave alone and allow it to come to you in natural fruition otherwise they lose all authenticity.
So I stopped trying to force something that wasn’t there and let my mind tell me when it was ready. Traveling, house searching and getting back into the swing of work can really hamper your creative mind.
It’s now the end of Jan (already?!) and I’m finally starting to see a clearer picture of how I want 2017 to pan out for me. I’ve decided that this is the year for me & my happiness. I’m established in a somewhat new country and have set down my roots, so now it’s time to flourish. It’s going to be a year of personal adventure, growth, exploration, trying new things, being impulsive, saying yes and living like the soon-to-be-25 year old I am.
I’m under no illusions that there will still be challenging times ahead but I want to look back on 2017 and know that I genuinely lived as much as I could. That I experienced things I haven’t before and that I have made lasting memories with new and old friends. I want to feel established and content in myself and my life, professionally, socially, spiritually and health-wise. I want a strong group of friends around me I can turn to, a strong unwavering relationship, a steady & challenging career, fit & able body and a strong sense of self and I have a feeling that when I look back on this year, I will be happy with the way I’ve created this life.
Even if you get off to a slow start I think that it’s important to remember you don’t need a new year to start something new or implement change because, essentially, you get that chance every single day. You’re not restricted by anything except the shackles you put around yourself and I think knowing that in itself is extremely invigorating and freeing.
If it’s not serving towards my happiness then it’s not something that I need in my life. And neither do you.