Well, the last few weeks have been hectic to say the least. Moving countries, finding a house, starting a new job, making new friends and trying to start a new life has been liberating, tiring, exciting and eye opening.
In all honesty, I came to Melbourne with little expectations. Leaving special people behind and venturing into the unknown was so hard and crippling at the time but now I look back and those problems seem so trivial now.
I’ve started a new life. I have been forced out of my comfort zone and been made to open up in ways I never thought I would. Generally, I’m a closed off kind of person. I’m shy until you get to know me but being thrust into new situations where I know no one has forced me to break out and become an extrovert.
And although it’s been scary and confronting, it’s been so liberating and rewarding. I’ve only been here a few weeks and I feel like this is exactly where I belong. I know everything is going to work out okay. I’m happy, I’m living my life the way I choose to and I’m enjoying every damn minute of it.
I’ve been lost and confused and have never had to use Google maps so much in my life. But I’ve learned and grown. I’ve met people in the past few days who I feel like I’ve known my whole life. I’ve been welcomed with open arms to a new world and it feels like everything has happened at exactly the right time for me. Everything has fallen right into place.
Ironically, despite the persistent questioning that was going through my mind before I left – I still knew that everything would work out but to see it, and FEEL it happening is something different.
I feel like I’ve found a career I am going to not only succeed in but absolutely love at the same time. It’s fast paced, busy, rewarding, and you get out what you put in.
The people in my life are conducive to my goals. They’re happy, positive and supportive people who aren’t obsessed with the number of body measurements. Mainly because they don’t even know what said measurements are. I feel at peace.
I’ve finally found a sense of balance in my life that I really didn’t know was possible after competing. I eat healthy, balanced meals 90% of the time but then I also go out and socialise with a glass of wine after work on a Friday (and Thursday). I go to the gym 4 times a week but if something else comes up, I don’t miss out on social occasions because of an inherent guilt of not going. I train when I want and only because I want to, not because I have to.
I eat when I want and if I want chocolate, I have it. I’m healthy, I’m being social, making friends but still sticking to goals and my love of being fit. I didn’t know if I would ever get to this stage. Yes, I still have days where I wish I was leaner or firmer but that soon surpasses when I remember all of the invaluable memories I’ve formed from having the freedom to live my life not constrained to Tupperware and a strict regime. I’m now living the life I’ve fought so hard for that has everything and everyone I want and need.
Career, balance, socialising, happiness, motivation, challenges, training, laughter, and freedom. I’m not taking anything for granted because I know how quickly things can change. But for now, I’m enjoying the little things.